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Six Things Pastors Write (Other Than Sermons).

I’ve been using a program called Grammarly lately. It tells me that I write more words per week than 99% of its users. Maybe it tells everyone that (which wouldn’t fit the math), but it seemed to verify that I write a lot of words each week. 

Now it might be because I have to prep a sermon every Sunday. And yes, my sermons are longer than some, but not too long I hope. 

There is another reason why I write a lot. It’s because being a pastor means that you have to write in different formats for different audiences. The writing has to be regular and it must be done well. 

So what are some of the other things pastors should be writing? To start with, let’s look at the pastor as a letter-writer. 

1. Letters

There is a long Christian tradition of letter writing that goes back to the New Testament epistles. Many pastors wrote extensively to their congregation, to outsiders and to other pastors. Their collective letter writing can be a devotional gold mine. The letters of Augustine, John Calvin, Samuel Rutherford, John Newton or Martyn Lloyd-Jones all have their own godly character and pastoral wisdom. 

Today the way that most pastors engage in letter writing is through email. Unfortunately, email is often seen as a blight in our lives. Yet for all that, it is still the way that people communicate in long written form. 

Can email be redeemed? Someone will suggest that we go back to writing handwritten letters as a way to escape email. This is a possibility for some of your correspondence. However, in our modern-day, pastors will still be using email and church members will expect it. 

The way to redeem email is to commit to writing well. Thoughtfully crafted letters which are scripturally soaked and prayerfully inspired can be spiritually meaningful for the recipients. 

Pastors can work at writing better quality emails in the spirit of the great letter-writers of the past. 

2. Devotionals

Frequently pastors are asked to share a mini-meditation on Scripture. This might be at a staff meeting, an elders meeting, a home visit, a potluck or small group. It’s not a sermon, but you have to be able to pray, preach or die at a moment’s notice. 

It’s helpful for pastors to write down brief skeleton outlines of biblical passages they are reading devotionally. Maybe there is a single insight they can draw out, whether a principle or other application. You never know when that nut you’ve squirrelled away will be needed!

3. Position Papers

When some pastors leave seminary, their academic muscles get atrophied. But if they are faithful in their calling, they will usually have to employ rigorous study and careful precision to produce position papers on doctrinal issues their church is debating. 

Certainly, some pastors will write often about theological issues beyond their own congregation. But even the pastor focussed only on his own patch will have to draft these careful essays on theology. There are many contentious issues that may require an essay like this, whether it involves the church’s views on alcohol use, views on worship music, or views on the millennium. In any of these cases, a church statement will require some careful writing. 

4. Summaries of Events

In counselling or church discipline situations, there may need to be written communication that expresses more formal language. This requires a lot of care because when there is a conflict between a pastor and someone else, it is important to be able to communicate clearly. This is also the reason why face-to-face meetings are so important during conflict. At the same time, written documentation and clear communication in writing are often necessary. Pastors need to learn how to write these kinds of summaries, statements of church action or other letters during disagreements. The careful pastor will be able to restate issues fairly, concisely and winsomely. But it takes practice. 

5. Discipleship Resources

The pastor will accumulate a lot of bible study material through his years of preaching. It is helpful if he is able to repackage them into training resources for the future. He can create Sunday school classes, small group bible studies, blog posts, booklets, e-books and more. 

By re-cycling these materials, he doesn’t merely retread the same sermons to the same congregation. Instead, he re-purposes them for different uses by editing, collecting and regrouping them. When pastors are re-using good material they are simply being good stewards of the resources God has given them. 

6. Worship Resources

Some pastors will have musical or poetic ability. So they will be able to write hymns for congregational worship. The hymns may not be any good. Or they may end up being suitable for a different generation’s tastes. But good hymnody is a sign of spiritual life in a church. Pastors with songwriting skills can apply themselves to write hymns and help Christian worship. If no one else will sing them, at least the pastor can!

Not every pastor may be good at hymn-writing, but they will all have to work at liturgy crafting. Even if they used a set format a pastor will have to fill in the blanks. He will have to choose which texts to use, and which prayers to pray. Even if the liturgy has unscripted elements, the outline overall will employ basic categories such as a call to worship, a time of repentance and assurance of pardon, a pastoral prayer, prayer for the Word preached and a benediction. This weekly liturgical writing is something that all pastors must do and oversee, even when it is a team effort.

Public pastoral prayers can be a regular piece of spiritual writing for a pastor. He may jot down notes on the back of his bulletin, or he may craft a written prayer beforehand. There are different courses for different horses and every pastor will have his own way of preparing to pray pastorally for his congregation, the nation and the advance of the gospel. Whatever the preparation, likely there is some pre-prayer praying and writing going on.

Writing to Make Disciples

Of course, some of the greatest theological writings have come from pastors. These great men of God have used their pastoral ministry as the seedbed for their other theological writings. In all of it, their aim was to disciple believers in the churches. 

Pastors are writers. But they write more than sermons. Pray for your pastor that he would grow as a preacher, but also as a godly writer in all the channels that are necessary.


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Can You Cope With the Mixed Legacy of Your Movement?

Revival and renewals have been happening throughout history and across geography. God has given awakenings from Iraq’s Ninevite awakening in the eighth century (BC) to Korea’s Pyongyang Revival in the early twentieth century (AD). But can public sin undo a renewal like the YRR movement?

We have to start by remembering that with every awakening, like all visible professions of faith, our interpretation of events is limited. We do not see as God sees. Apparent visible success can be much more mixed than we anticipated. As well, fears of decline can be more highly exaggerated by us, while God has many who have not bowed the knee to Baal (1 Kings 19:18, Rom 11:4).

Jesus taught us that various spiritual states can show visibly potential spiritual life, but that only the lasting, fruit-bearing life reveals the “good soil” (Mt 13:1-23, Mk 4:1-20, Lk 8:4-15).

Jesus himself experienced the reversals of having people follow him visibly, but who “turned back and no longer walked with him” (John 6:66). Of course, Jesus spoke about Judas, but he included all those who followed for a season but didn’t remain.

Paul understood this visible reversal. He had many people join and then abandon his Lord’s mission so that when Paul was put on trial nobody was there to stand up for him except, as Paul noted, the Lord himself (2 Ti 4:16-17).

Accepting the Mixed Legacy

So when renewals and revivals come, there will be seasons of delight and disillusionment. Such season ought to be anticipated. They have occurred since the days of our Lord’s earthly ministry and the early days of the church under the apostles care. There is a big difference between the disillusionment from seeing an end to visible successes and being brazenly disillusioned with God.

Should We Be Agnostic About Renewals?

Another approach always pops up in answer to the question of delight versus disillusionment. The alternative approach is to be sort of agnostic about seasons of renewal and revival. People who take on this approach refuse to acknowledge an awakening because they are a bit cynical and not wishing to be disappointed. With this approach, people may hear good reports, and they act like they don’t exist, or don’t matter.

Being agnostic about renewals tends to be fearfully passive and moribund, or suspiciously shrunk down to the safest unit possible– yourself. Like Elijah, there can be a lack of self-awareness with this approach since God is doing many unseen things all the time (cf. 1 Kings 19:18). This approach tends toward dead orthodoxy (that is therefore unorthodox), ‘the frozen chosen’, and the death of missions.

Productive Not Parasitical

In Michael Allen’s book, he contrasts the two ways that reform can take place. He says that reforms can take place productively or parasitically. I found this distinction very helpful. When we consider reformation, revival, and renewal, we always want to be seeking productive change, not parasitical change. A renewal is parasitical if it is merely feeding off of the spiritual productivity of a previous renewal. If the calls for change are parasitical then they are bound to bring serious spiritual decline. An example of this is how the Second Great Awakening was largely parasitical on the miraculous events of the First Great Awakening.

If the renewal we seek is productive we can hope for better. The good of a previous renewal can be built upon, while the errors and sins of the mixed legacy can be sifted, recanted and repented of.

An example of a productive renewal is what has been called the Young, Restless and Reformed (YRR) movement or the reformed renewal. The reformed renewal has had a productive growth for over half a century. It began after WWII, rose alongside of neo-evangelicalism, and took over the conservative wing of the evangelical movement. Now at a peak, the Young, Restless and Reformed are not so young anymore. All along, there has been a largely productive renewal that has occurred. Now the mixed nature of the renewal is starting to be recognized as visible success has not guaranteed enduring faithfulness. But on the whole, the stream represented by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones, JI Packer, John Piper, John MacArthur, Albert Mohler and Mark Dever has been a productive renewal.

Gratitude for Renewals and Revivals

When we recognize the mixed legacy of renewals and revivals, we can give thanks to God for what they are, not what they are not. Revivals are not heaven on earth. We shouldn’t treat them like that. Revivals have not ushered in global Christianization, so we shouldn’t act as if they will.

But we can give thanks to God for the good soil and lasting fruit of those who are truly saved in the midst of renewals. We can be filled with gratitude for what God has done, and hold fast to the gospel of Jesus Christ as the abiding source of all good kingdom work.

With that kind of gratitude, we will be expectant of the Holy Spirit to bring new awakenings and new transformations as the ingathering of God’s people continues, awaiting the consummation of our renewal unhindered before the face of God for eternity. The affliction of reversals won’t even compare. Instead, we will come to realize that “this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison” (2 Cor 4:17).

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What does a Pilates Class have to do with Intelligent Design?

I remember a while ago how I had to study anatomy intensively in order to get my Pilates teacher training certification.

The intricate and complex design of the human body was a little overwhelming to comprehend. Having barely scratched the surface of the muscular and skeletal systems, I was struck by how each of the many muscles, ligaments, tendons and bones are integrated so perfectly for the human body to function.

Each detail has a reason behind it. There is a distinct purpose in the masterpiece of the human body. The study of anatomy points strongly to a Designer. I recall how the Pilates instructor said on the one hand, “We don’t really need the psoas minor anymore, it was only necessary when we walked on all fours”, yet on the other hand could say, “The way the femur attaches into the hip socket is a genius design.”

Later another student asked, “Why is the lumbar spine designed like…um…I mean…whatever you believe…what is the purpose of its limited range of motion in rotation?”

As we saw the purpose and function of everything, it was pretty difficult to talk about the human body as a mere random chance. Presupposing evolution made it hard for anyone to ask “why?” without contradicting themselves.

Psalm 139 says:

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand.

Psalm 139

Creation undeniably points to the glory of the Creator. What joy to know that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made” in a way that transcends even our profound physical make-up. Studying anatomy has helped me appreciate again the wonder of God having “intricately woven” us in secret.

Who can comprehend the greatness of the mind of God?

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An Indigenous Testimony to Gospel Transformation

It is good to hear testimonies of how God has saved people. Sometimes conversion is dramatic like Paul’s on the Damascus road (Acts 9:1-22). Other times it is incremental like Timothy’s having learned the Scriptures from his mother and grandmother (2 Tim 1:5).

I found a testimony that was a more dramatic sort. It was the conversion of an Indigenous man whose name was Kai’sui-tsinamaka, or as he was also called, “Not Afraid of the Gros Ventres”, and “Small Eyes”. He was a tough character, but he eventually came to faith in Christ.

The account recorded by the historian Hugh Dempsey illustrates how dramatic Kai’sui-tsinamaka’s conversion was. Dempsey writes:

“It was hard to believe that the transformation could be so sudden and so complete. One day, Small Eyes had been a wild, woman-chasing gambler who was utterly devoted to the religion of his people, and the next day he had cast it all aside to join the Christian church. He began taking instructions from the missionary and a short time later he was baptized. He was given the name of Paul Little Walker– Paul after the apostle, and Little Walker in honor of his beloved mother. His brother, Takes a Handsome Gun decided to be baptized at the same time, taking the name Timothy Little Walker” (The Amazing Death of Calf Shirt and Other Stories, 229).

This account reminds me of the reaction to Paul’s dramatic conversion:


And immediately he proclaimed Jesus in the synagogues, saying, “He is the Son of God.” And all who heard him were amazed and said, “Is not this the man who made havoc in Jerusalem of those who called upon this name? And has he not come here for this purpose, to bring them bound before the chief priests?”

Acts 9:20-21

If there is someone we know who seems to be the most unlikely candidate to believe in Christ, we need to pray. God is able to save Paul or Timothy. He is able to save Kai’sui-tsinamaka, you or me.



For more of my articles on Indigenous gospel testimonies, you can look at The Gospel Coalition Canada:

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The Priority of Spiritual Motherhood

This is a post which appeared recently at The Gospel Coalition Canada. Here’s an excerpt:

Anne Bradstreet (1612-1672) was a puritan woman and a published poet, but what fascinates me most about her is the priority she placed on spiritual motherhood. She wrote letters, proverbs and biblical advice for her children (even into adulthood). When it came to building up her children’s faith, she didn’t leave it to the experts. She took every opportunity to invest in her children’s spiritual good.


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Are Distracted Evangelicals In Danger of Losing Heaven?


Evangelicals are getting so distracted with political and cultural positioning that they are in danger of losing some important things. Nowadays, I fear that distracted evangelicals are in danger of losing heaven. 

When you are distracted and rushing around you can easily forget things. How many times have you rushed to get out the door to go somewhere and you get into the car only to find that you forgot your keys? Maybe that’s just what happens to me, but you get my point. When you’re distracted you forget things.

Distracted From Distraction By Distraction

When we’re busy in this way we are, as TS Eliot put it,  “distracted from distraction by distraction”. Evangelicals today are in a mad rush, fueled by the high-combustibility of Twitter, yet they don’t really know where they’re going or what they’re doing. Some evangelicals are desperate to position themselves in a friendly posture to the sexual revolution. Other evangelicals want to distance themselves from any taint of the culture, and especially from the compromising evangelicals on the other side of the issues. 

How Can We Be So Distracted?

Pause for a moment and wonder how a people who confess Jesus rose from the dead can fuss about politics so much? How can those who confess that their eternal destiny is secured, resident in union with the ascended Christ in heaven, worry so much about cultural acceptance in a world that is not their home?

For all of the crusades and campaigns, whether for social justice, or against cultural Marxism, or for gay Christian inclusivity, or against the sexual revolution— whatever the campaign may be, you will find almost no talk of heaven. 

The Quantitative Case for the Loss of Heaven

Now all sides might cry out that they believe in heaven. But the point I’m making is a quantitative one. Take all of the articles, sermons, blog posts, tweets and books written about the current controversies that are dividing evangelicalism. Compile all of them and assign them a percentage in comparison to all of the total evangelical writings offered. Then calculate the percentage of evangelical discussions about heaven.  I’m sure that the percentage of words about heaven would be dreadfully low. 

A further objection might be that there is a whole swath of ‘heaven tourism’ out there. Many books and films in this genre occupy the evangelical imagination. This sadly is true. But if you were to take the fraudulent claims of those ‘there and back’ books, there would be little talk of heaven left. 

The Drift Toward Pharisees and Sadduccees

Without a keen focus on heaven, we will tend to drift into the two major camps of Judaism at the time of Jesus. We will be the political action committee populated by resurrection-denying Sadducees. Or we will be tribalistic Pharisees advertising their identity by who they shun.  So just as the Pharisees and Sadducees fought one another they both missed the Messiah and the inbreaking of the kingdom of God, as the guarantor of heaven.

As a friend pointed out to me, the manner in which the debates are carried out by evangelicals is very worldly. I think so. It is very ‘this-worldly’. And the drift toward either the Pharisee or Sadducee approach is not oriented to heaven, but to this world. This worldly drift can reveal a similar viewpoint as the Sanhedrin had about Jesus. John records it:

“If we let him go on like this, everyone will believe in him, and the Romans will come and take away both our place and our nation

(John 11:48).

What is Lost

When evangelicals don’t have a desire for heaven, their over-realized eschatology turns into a desperate powerplay for social positioning. What is lost is the positive hope of the gospel.

  • Without heaven there is no declaration, “there is no condemnation” (Rom 8:1).
  • Without heaven, there is no “well done good and faithful servant” (Matt 25:23).
  • Without heaven, there is no “behold I am coming soon” (Rev 22:12). 

Gaining Heaven

Heaven puts everything in perspective. It raises the stakes about the gospel and life and death. The beatific vision and all our longings for heaven will relativize our debates. Isn’t it time we got back to considering what the writer to the Hebrews wrote when he said:

“For Christ has entered, not into holy places made with hands, which are copies of the true things, but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God on our behalf.”

Hebrews 9:24

Maybe if we were more heavenly minded we would be far more earthly good? Let’s pray to that end and lift up our eyes to heaven.

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The Secret Many Christians Don’t Want To Admit: They’re Fatigued

Christians are a busy bunch. And they get physically tired. Tired of work, schedules, commitments, and expectations (Or maybe that’s just me!). But there is a surprising secret that Christians don’t like to admit. They’re tired in another way. They’re spiritually fatigued.

Spiritual Fatigue Illustrated

I’ve seen this now for a while in my church and others. There can be a sense of fatigue in a believer’s heart. It’s a fatigue about preaching, about holiness, about the power of God’s grace and more.

Recently this fatigue was illustrated to me when I read an interview with Josh Harris. Harris is the former Sovereign Grace pastor who influenced many people through his books. The recurring theme that I got from the interview was that Harris had become spiritually exhausted. The Word of God seemed all but meaningless to him now. In fact, he expressed doubt that any meaning could be concluded from the bible. He wasn’t even able to position himself into the non-evangelical, ‘progressive Christian’ camp which the interviewer wanted. Clearly, Josh Harris was tired of it all.

The Threat of Spiritual Fatigue

That kind of fatigue is the greatest threat to your walk with God. It is the fatigue that prevents you from growing when there is a bit of testing. It is like the parable of the soils, when someone is rootless, even initial joy can be reversed. Then a person will ‘fall away’ (Luke 8:13). The problem reveals itself in that scenario, that the soil wasn’t good to start with.

When this fatigue sets into a person’s life, it will start to justify itself by multiplying preferences. They might begin preferring different music, happier sermon themes or an inclusive style of ministry. Yet this spiritual fatigue can also start to despair that anything can change. That fatigue will have low views of God. It won’t see God’s goodness, his power to change things, and his free desire to do his people good. The result is that the spiritually fatigued person will be tempted to give up. They will quit on God, the church, friends and spouses.

Pain and Fatigue

Of course, we normally get spiritually sleepy when we are comfortable. A bit of conflict, some job reversals, or a medical diagnosis can suddenly wake us up to our need. As CS Lewis said in The Problem of Pain:

“We can ignore even pleasure. But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”

CS Lewis, The Problem of Pain

Pain will come and it will stir us from our fatigue. Yet long before that God’s Word can do the rousing and can make us better prepared for the painful days. We can be awake to them, self-aware and alert to God, even when we feel physically worn out. As David said, “I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God.” (Psalm 69:3). Physical fatigue is part of our outer self “wasting away” (2 Cor 4:16). But our inner self is “being renewed day by day” as we receive God’s good, correcting and awakening Word.

Fatigued by Jesus’ Demands?

Still, the great danger is that comfortable fatigue. How scary is it to get too tired to listen to God, the Scriptures, or his people. If Jesus is Lord, then our claims to follow him require that we do what he says. His demands are completely within his rights over us. But when people give in to spiritual fatigue, they start to view Jesus’s demands as onerous.

Fatigued and Disillusioned

In a column for The Gospel Coalition Canada, I wrote about how disillusionment and deconversion are connected. This comes out in the Josh Harris interview too. One of the saddest descriptions he made was how he talked about his church. He said that his church and those like it were “high demand religious environments”. He spoke of “a culture that places high demand on the execution of [biblical ethics] and creates structures of accountability, reward for those that do it well, a sense of shame for those that don’t do it well”.

Now certainly there could be legalistic, graceless, unloving applications of the biblical ethic. All faithful churches seek to shun legalism, and live by God’s forgiving grace in Christ. Yet Jesus is Lord. He is the one who creates a “high demand religious environment”. When he summoned the first disciples, it was with the all-encompassing demand “Follow me”. John Piper wrote a whole book summarizing Jesus’ high demands which was logically titled, What Jesus Demands From the World. So churches that seek to follow Jesus will heed the instructions which Paul gave to Titus:

The saying is trustworthy, and I want you to insist on these things, so that those who have believed in God may be careful to devote themselves to good works. These things are excellent and profitable for people.

(Titus 3:8)

Words like “insist”, “be careful” and “devote” are not sleepy words. They are words of awakening to the fatigued. Of course if there is no gospel-power, it’s useless. Gospel power is the animation of the Holy Spirit to apply undeserved favour of Christ’s love to the sinner’s heart. Sadly the natural man starts to think it’s all a waste of time. And he or she is too tired to bother with it (cf. 1 Cor 2:14).

The Trumpet and the Yoke

Friends, let us pray that God’s word will trumpet in our ears with his Spirit-empowered Word. Pray that God would do this when we get too sleepy to care what God thinks. Then, when we listen to our Lord Jesus, we realize that the demands of his yoke are easy and his burden is light (Matt 11:30).

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Loosening Your Grip on Others

When you are being chased by notifications, calendar requests, and the demand to always be ‘on’ don’t you feel like you’re losing control a bit?

Sure you might say that you’re taking control of your calendar, or taking control of your life. But as we all know, there can be a bit of hubris to that kind of talk. 

We all know that things can fall apart quickly. 

The work piles up. 

The unexpected crashed down. 

And we are suddenly out of control. 

The temptation when that happens is that we grip the one part of our life that we think we can control more easily: our relationships. 

When things spin out of control in our circumstances, we can get pretty grippy with people and our expectations for them. 

Suddenly we become the person who needs others to come through for them. 

Your expectations will get unreasonably high. 

Your impatience with other people’s limits will fester.

Your grip on others will seem like the only thing that you can control in your life. 

But what happens is that as you squeeze others, you end up trying to make them give you the control over your life that you crave.

And they can’t fix that

So you have to loosen your grip on people. And you have to relinquish your grip on your entire life. When we do this in submission to God we gain freedom. 

“Live as people who are free, 
not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil,
but living as servants of God.”
1 Peter 2:16
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Book Review: What’s So Great About the Doctrines of Grace? by Richard Phillips

In the February 2019 edition of the 9Marks Journal, I wrote a review on Richard Phillips book on Calvinism. It’s a great little book that would be helpful to recommend to people in your church. It would also be useful for people who claim to be Calvinists but aren’t that great at presenting Calvinism in a winsome manner. Phillips really shows the beauty of the doctrines of grace.

You can check out the full review here.

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John Newton, Marie Kondo and Reflections on the 10-Year Challenge

My Instagram feed is filled with people posting their “ten-year challenge” photos. I like comparing the photos as much as the next person. While most of this comparison may be an exercise in vanity, there is something inspiring about seeing someone who looks better than they did a decade ago. You can imagine the effort and self-discipline it took for them to make progress in their health and wellbeing.

When I look in the mirror, I’m aware that I won’t win any 10-year challenge. The lines around my eyes are deeper and my body is weaker. But to be honest, it doesn’t bother me much. Looking back on the last decade, the deepest, most ubiquitous emotion I feel is thankfulness to God for all He has done for me.  

I recently Kondo’d my closet, clearing clutter and reviving treasures that haven’t seen the light of day in years. I found an old journal from nearly a decade past. For days, I couldn’t bear to open it. The raw, vulnerable words of my angsty twenty-something self didn’t beckon me to read.

But this morning curiosity got the better of me. Who was I then? What’s changed in a decade? Turns out I’m the same person. And also not the same.

I still have my greatest hope in Jesus Christ and his redeeming work for me. I still struggle at times to “put off” my old self and “be renewed in the spirit of [my] mind”(Ephes. 4:22-24). My biggest disappointment was that I still struggle with anxiety. But by God’s grace a few things have changed.

First, I have tasted suffering and felt more resistance to my faith, and yet God has held me fast through it all. When anxiety rushes in–and it still does–I’ve got something solid to grab onto so that I’m not pulled away in its current. I’ve got another decade’s worth of love, trust and relationship with God, and because of this shared history, my sanity returns quicker and truth resonates deeper. This decade has taught me to move forward in faith despite the fear that wants to cripple me.

Second, I’m gentler with myself. This is a tricky one because I don’t mean to imply that I’m gentle with my sin. I still hold to John Owen’s oft-quoted mantra: “Be killing sin or it will be killing you.” Romans 8:13 makes it clear that we must put sin to death by the power of the Spirit, but sinful impulses don’t die in the blink of an eye. It takes a lifetime of resistance. And yet my twenty-something self held punishingly high standards for perfection in this life. Thank God that He is pleased with our best efforts, however imperfect (e.g. 1 Tim. 2:3, 1 Thess. 2:4), and he doesn’t require perfection before He can use us!

I see this John Newton quote cycle through social media every so often. Each time I see it, my scrolling finger is forced to stop because Newton’s words resonate so deeply. They express a healthy understanding of how both sin and grace inform Christian identity.

I am not what I ought to be,

I am not what I want to be,

I am not what I hope to be in another world;

but still I am not what I once used to be,

and by the grace of God I am what I am.

For those of us who feel our “ten-year challenge” photos aren’t up to Instagram standards, all is not lost. If we have grown in godly character, the deeper lines on our face are not something to mourn. We are a decade closer to who we ought to be and want to be. By God’s grace I am what I am and His grace is enough (1 Cor. 15:10, Rom. 8:1).